Ouch!

After a couple of weeks of eating what I'll call road-food I've decided to detox.

It's not like I was eating horrible food to begin with. The food at Menla -- delicious and carefully pepared. The food this past weekend -- average Amrican fare. Scrambled eggs, pancakes, french toast, turkey on whole wheat. Nothing that's gonna kill anyone but a far cry from the diet I've tailored for myself which is gluten free, vegetarian, and includes a whole lotta eggs.

So the guidelines for this week are as follows --
NO
 -- wheat
 -- meat
 -- eggs
 -- refined sugar

and right now it's nothing but pain.

When I factor in that my brain is undergoing a serious recalibration from all the Healing Touch over the weekend, let's just say I'm ready to curl up into a little tiny ball and sleep this one off.

No such luck. Life awaits.

Did you know that when Marianne Williamson asked us: "What would you change about your life if you were living without the fear of death?" Some of the people in the workshop replied, "Nothing."

It made me wonder if those people had never grieved. Come on. Think about it, if you were living without the fear of death (which really means the fear of dying) you'd be living the most ballsiest, daring, loving, caring life possible. And not to knock  the folks who wouldn't change a thing, great, don't change a thing. But for those of us who are still in the midst of trying to determine our relationship to death, lose the flotsam and jetsam, dream big, don't settle. Give up the trite.

If you can honestly day that tomorrow you'd go to your maker with no regrets -- Congratulations. For everyone else, get back to work on yourselves today.

You're facing several situations:

1. You become sick and you are actively dying and you know it and time is running out.
2. You die suddenly.
3. You live a large life like you mean it.



I can't find the logic in waiting -- if you haven't contemplated scenarios 1 & 2 then you won't make it to scenario 3. (Unless of course you're an infant or a young child who has not yet become aware of the power that the knowledge of mortality will lord over you -- usually that knowledge gets twisted into fear.)

So I'll ask you to give up all the conventional wisdom that you hold so preciously dear and ask you to dare yourself to live a bold life. Trust me, it'll be a life that's a whole lot more interesting to live.